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Of late, my amblings have wandered far from any notion of diary entries or blogs. In fact, I’ve been wandering quite a bit myself over the past year or so. A heady summer spent travelling led to some serious self questioning, with little to no answers thrown up – quite perturbing for someone who always knew their own mind. Aged 21 now, and having twisted free from a nasty old period in time, I’ve acquiesced to the fact that my requisite dose of angst merrily pops up in my system whenever it likes, relegating any conviction and faith to nether regions (somewhere between trigonometry and irregular verb tables). I seem to be always very unsure of myself, clumsy with words and verging on over-cynicism. A real citizen of inconstant thought. What’s worse, despite the great freedom I have, I’m realising that 21 can be a very self-centred dot in time if I don’t take care to check myself.
Since I’ve moved university, I’ve discovered the infamous Transport for London. Ah, with TFL we’re rushing nowhere at high speed. A lovely thought nugget popped up on a poster at my station yesterday however, ‘there’s more to life than increasing its speed.’ I wandered back to my digs a bit less hurriedly. In that time I smiled at two people, and got one back in return. I answered a friend’s phone call and texted a (bad) joke to my brother. These snatches of contact are more important in our fragmentary experiences than we realise.
Many of us relate to the modern ennui, spread by faster technology, communication, machinery. Many of us are not unhappy; just waiting for a time when we will become happy. This strange cycle of rushing towards something that we seem forever bound to wait for is driving us to distraction. Now, hold back a little while. Take five minutes from your daily dash to the bus-stop. For if there is any kind of magic in the world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone else, sharing their life if even just for a moment. The answer of our lives must be in the attempt to make time for others. What we have, our time together, is ours – our creation – and ours to protect.
Amy
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